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15 August 2008 @ 11:34 pm
I am alive AND I have spawned!  
It's been over two years, man. I don't even know how or where to start. Most people on my flist probably don't even remember me, and hey, man, no offense taken, because I probably don't remember you either! Several of you have sent me nudges over the years, and every time I saw one of those, I felt a weird combination of warm fuzziness and damning guilt. It's truly heartwarming to know you still think of me and maybe even miss me, but I felt terrible for not responding to your nudge, or at least letting you know that yes, I'm still alive. I've meant many times to come back to this journal, but the time and conditions weren't right. It's not worth relating the long (and fairly boring, actually) story of why.

But now they are, and so I return. And I have multiplied! The most important thing is that my husband and I welcomed our first child, Meghan, on March 22, 2008. I'm sure I will post lots more about her in the future, but suffice it to say that her smile is my morning sunshine, even when I'm groggy and crabby from the million times she woke me up at night. :)

I've been disconnected from HP fandom itself for a while, and that's probably a good thing. I can't say I regret having missed the craziness surrounding Deathly Hallows; I read the book once, but that was about it. I owe the whole series a reread, actually. Anyway, fandom sort of corrupted me for a while, and I think I lost track of the source of my love for the series. I think I want to get back into it now, but on my own terms. I started out in fandom at The Sugar Quill because I wanted to explore the characters and the world more through genfic, by looking at other characters' experiences and points of views and by imagining the stories that JKR didn't show us, but were lurking in her periphery. I also wanted to improve my writing, and The Sugar Quill had a mandatory beta process.

And then somehow it all (that is, fandom, or at least the majority of my degree of participation in it) turned into shipping and wank and slash, and I guess I'm just done with it all. I want to go back to my roots. I'll keep the crack, though. The crack is always good.

I didn't stop writing, though. RPGs are actually a great way to explore characterization, learn from others' writing, and practice quick replies to prompts. And mine is multifandom, so it's been fun getting exposed to other canons, working with crossovers, and, most importantly, promulgating the crack. :)

Anyway, so here I am. Now that I'm a stay-at-home mom (and STILL working on finishing up that damn grad degree!), I intend to use some of that time to return to fandom -- and to journaling in general; I've missed it. It's hard with a demanding four-and-a-half-month-old, but there is time now that she actually naps on her own in the crib (as opposed to only on my lap!).

I won't be offended if my journal ain't your cup of tea anymore, but for those of you who stick around, I'm looking forward to getting to know each other again. I really have missed you. :)
Melisus the Wee: orlymelisus on August 16th, 2008 05:19 pm (UTC)
Congratulations on the baby! You're not planning on disappearing for another two years, are you?

And I agree that the Harry Potter fandom got very mad very quickly, although the fall-out from the last book was actually quite mild. Things have seemed to mellow out for the most part, though LJ cracked down on a lot of NC-17 art and whatnot which seemed to create some sort of fandom schism/migration. Ah well. I think the fandom is a bit more of a fun place to hang out now that the series is over and done with as if the wanky fans are still around they don't make so much noise.
Miss Sophia: Writing with Quillmiss_sophia on August 17th, 2008 05:45 am (UTC)
Thanks! And no, I'm not planning on disappearing. :)

Oh yes, I was aware of Strikethroughgate or whatever it was called. Glad that I wasn't paying enough attention that I would get involved in the wank, though. And yay, I'm glad to hear you think fandom's actually better because of the end of the series. And I'm equally glad that fandom didn't die with the series -- not that I ever thought it would! HP fandom is definitely here to stay.